I know I was always afraid that Louis-san hated me, but he told me something once when I was still under house arrest at your temple. It went something like... um. "Selfishness by itself is not a bad thing. It is natural; one can do nothing for others if one is does not take care of themselves and their own happiness first."

You tell me not to sacrifice my happiness for yours all the time, because that's what I naturally think will be best for you but you don't want me to be miserable. But you always try to sacrifice your happiness for others' happiness, even when they're already happy. Even if you think you don't deserve to be happy, which you do, you can't make others happy by making yourself lonely or sad! It... it doesn't work that way.