[Voice]

[unknownrival]

So, I was told to say this, and normally I wouldn't, but it looks like I've been virused and can't help it. They didn't say anything about mentioning the circumstances beforehand, though.

Ahem.

My name is Ryudo Issei, and Tohsaka Rin had better class grades than me.

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[unknownrival]

That's what I thought.

[aquaticrush]

I, ah, I should apologize...

[unknownrival]

You don't have to.

[aquaticrush]

I suppose it would be a little strange, i-if he really wanted to get rid of me, since that's not very good, is it, but I suppose he thought I was bad for you, which is understandable, I think.

[unknownrival]

...I'm not sure if that's the case.

[He's pretty sure his motives were more 'mine all mine' than that.]

[aquaticrush]

But it makes sense.

[unknownrival]

Don't people often have desires like spending more time with their loved ones? In that case, wouldn't it not matter who else was in the picture?

[aquaticrush]

But that does matter, because...

[unknownrival]

Because?

[aquaticrush]

...Ah, um, n-never mind. I still don't want to upset people or make them dislike me because I was doing what I wanted even if it was selfish.

[unknownrival]

You have as much right to do what you want to as everyone else does.

[aquaticrush]

Why are you of all people saying that? Not doing what I wanted to ended up leading to you finally being happy again.

[unknownrival]

Sometimes you do things and they don't end well. But that doesn't mean you can never do things you want to again.

[aquaticrush]

I'm scared.

[unknownrival]

I wish I could help.

[aquaticrush]

You've helped me a lot, Issei-san.

[unknownrival]

I'll never stop trying.

[aquaticrush]

I-- ...Thank you.

[starofchaos]

However, Issei is correct.

Regardless of your beliefs, I have no dislike for you. Furthermore, it was a virus affecting us both. My feelings then are irrelevant to my feelings of now. Although I would say that it should be a mark of pride that you caused such feelings of adversary in myself, even under a virus.

You should have more faith in yourself. There is nothing wrong with a little selfishness now and again.

[aquaticrush]

Ah! Um... Y-you really don't hate me? You always seem like it...

Do you think so?

[starofchaos]

Not at all. My apologies. I have no intention to give off that impression. For that matter, there are very few people that I hate.

Selfishness by itself is not a bad thing. It is natural; one can do nothing for others if one is does not take care of themselves and their own happiness first. It is when it comes to the application of selfishness that most people falter. Learning when selfishness is needed and when it is superfluous is the key. But there is nothing wrong with it. Nor with what you did regarding Issei. By ordinary standards, I suspect I was the wrong one.

[aquaticrush]

You mean to say that you can't make others happy until you're happy...?

[starofchaos]

In essence, yes. There are exceptions, but generally, it becomes exceptionally harder to bring happiness to another when it is something you are lacking.

[aquaticrush]

What if your happiness would just hurt people? Issei-san looked so-- he must have been horrified when he found out I--

[starofchaos]

Then, you have to decide. If your method of happiness is hurting another, do you wish to keep it regardless? Or would you rather find a different method of happiness? Losing one way to be happy does not close off all other options to you. It simply means to find another way.