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[unknownrival]

Dear Shirou,

I want to express my feelings more clearly than I can in person. It's not that I'm particularly inept at saying what I want to say: rather, when I see you, I am overcome by feelings of Rewrite this part. embarrassment. Embarrassment's a good word. Not I-want-to-jump-you-now. Embarrassment.

We've known each other for several years now and been best friends for almost as long. I've spent many a time with you in the student council room aimlessly chatting about nothing. And all the while, my face would be about as red as a streetlight, you absolute idiot why didn't you notice?! Rewrite this. I miss those times. Fine, that works.

What I mean to say is that my feelings for you lie somewhat deeper than friendship. I know that they are only returned as such, but I still needed to express what you couldn't figure out through three and a half years of hinting. Rewrite this.

I felt the truth had to be known. I hope this does not lower your esteem for me in any way.

Love,
Issei
...rewrite that, too.

Comments

[pandorabox]

I think you might want to talk to him in Person, Ryudo-san. Especially about something so important.

[stripping.livejournal.com]

Every time I've tried, something's gone wrong. Like his girlfriend showing up... But if you think so, I'll try.

[pandorabox]

Aaah, and there is the key word... girlfriend, Ryudo-san?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

My archnemesis, if you must know, and from years before they even met so don't think it's that. Yet another example of why it won't work. But I... it's painful, for him not to know... Am I being selfish?

[pandorabox]

... you have to be careful, Ryudo-san. Allowing your heart to be stolen that easily only gets you hurt in the long run. [he worries for you Issei, really]

If Shirou-san's heart truly does belong to another, there may be little you can do. But if saying something makes you feel better, then why not~?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

And yet I couldn't have picked finer men to have it stolen by.

He'd still be straight were he single, it doesn't matter to me. And... I suppose I will, if there really is no harm in it.

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[pandorabox]

-- Issei?

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

Kid... Kaito. Yes?

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[pandorabox]

You gonna be okay?

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

Aren't I always?

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[pandorabox]

I didn't know you still cared bout the guy like that.

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

I am finding the concept of falling out of love to be quite alien to me. Of the four people I've truly considered myself in love with in my entire life, I'm still in love with three.

Of course, this bodes ill for you as well. I'm sure you'd like me to get over you.

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[pandorabox]

It would make things easier and probably improve your relationship with my girlfriend, but you can't force yourself not to feel a certain way.

Trust me. I tried.

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

I don't want to try if it's not going to work. ...even if I were to cut myself off from contact with you, I wouldn't be able to keep you out of my thoughts. And, more importantly, I wouldn't be able to stand it for a second.

I miss Haruto. ...I'd miss when I wasn't in love with anyone, but I can barely remember that.

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[pandorabox]

You're my friend, Issei. Things would be kinda boring without you.

. . . [wat do sob]

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

I'm boring. You don't need me.

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[pandorabox]

... 'm not gonna have this argument with you.

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

I claim victory, then.

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[pandorabox]

No you don't, it's just not something worth arguing over.

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

Fine. I'm worthy of your attention. Is that what you want me to say?

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[pandorabox]

Much better~

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

You know, semi-relatedly, I really should take offense to half your icons.

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[pandorabox]

-- what? Why?

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[stripping.livejournal.com]

Being so attractive. There ought to be a law against it.

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[pandorabox]

. . .

Keh. That was corny.