[Accidental Voice]

[unknownrival]

I'm not going to cheat on him. Not with Kid, not with Shirou. I would never cheat on him, even with a person I loved, because I also love him and you don't cheat on people you love.

But apparently, you can't love two or three or four people equally! You can only love one the most. And of course that person isn't the one you're dating. You're being disloyal just by dating anyone at all.

And if you love two people, you're fated to cheat on them. There's no such thing as self control! If you have to love more than one person, you might as well just never date anyone for your entire life to keep yourself from harming them! Who cares if you're unloved forever, if they're safe from you?

In fact, why don't you just go ahead and DIE FOR THEM?! It's the only way to prove that your love isn't just a selfish emotion, it's the only way to date them and not eventually betray them! Go ahead! I know I would!

'Take what you want from me, strip me bare, send me into certain death.' If you can't even respect my loyalty, which is the entirety of my being, how can you respect me at all?!

((Hakuba really made Issei flip out with his assertion that Issei couldn't love two people at the same time. Replies will be voice, he's not well enough to type correctly.))

Comments

[ridethetiger]

Let me ask you this: what's wrong with being with Haruto that you find yourself loving someone else?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

I was in love with another before I even met him. It doesn't work like that.

[ridethetiger]

So your feelings for that other person never went away?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

Not ever.

[ridethetiger]

So what, you want both of them or something?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

I know that will never happen, and I don't want them to do anything like that. I just deeply want them both to be happy.

[ridethetiger]

... I dunno, I still think you're being kind of stupid. It's not up to you to make them happy or anything, and besides, shouldn't that kind of devotion just go to Haruto now?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

It isn't something that I can control consciously. I can only make sure that my love for them is pure and that I don't act upon it in a way that will hurt him.

[ridethetiger]

What the hell? They're your feelings, what do you mean you can't control them?

[stripping.livejournal.com]

I'm saying that the control of them is subconscious.

[ridethetiger]

That doesn't make sense.

[stripping.livejournal.com]

Feelings are complicated. If we could control what we felt, we would be spared a lot of pain. But it's very difficult.