I should see this as an opportunity to grow. To move beyond needing such a security blanket in order to have peace of mind. To be strong.
...I say that, but I haven't gotten any sleep since Kid was stolen by... Kaitou Kid. I may have to resort to sleeping in my brother's room, though I outgrew that a long time ago.
Why would he do this to me... Am I no different than a faceless museum to him, to be stolen from at his own whims?
...I say that, but I haven't gotten any sleep since Kid was stolen by... Kaitou Kid. I may have to resort to sleeping in my brother's room, though I outgrew that a long time ago.
Why would he do this to me... Am I no different than a faceless museum to him, to be stolen from at his own whims?
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Sep. 18th, 2010 07:07 pmI tried contacting Haruto today. I do that on a fairly regular basis: our conversations are rarely important, but always a relief from the stress of the day. ...I digress.
I couldn't reach him. Then I had a look at the member list of the community - he wasn't on it.
...I've lost friends to the whims of the community before. I should be used to this... and yet it never stops being painful.
I couldn't reach him. Then I had a look at the member list of the community - he wasn't on it.
...I've lost friends to the whims of the community before. I should be used to this... and yet it never stops being painful.
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Mar. 24th, 2010 07:07 amWho. Spiked. My. Drink. Come here so that I can punch you.
[Locked to Tyki]
I'm very sorry, my behavior was inappropriate. The things I said should not have been said in polite company, even though you are a very attractive man and I meant that, I still shouldn't have said it. I hope this does not impact our friendship and perhaps it would be best if we forgot this ever happened?
[Locked to Tyki]
I'm very sorry, my behavior was inappropriate. The things I said should not have been said in polite company, even though you are a very attractive man and I meant that, I still shouldn't have said it. I hope this does not impact our friendship and perhaps it would be best if we forgot this ever happened?
[Issei is shaking with the force of his sobs. He's obviously been crying for a while.
Eventually, the sobs slow down enough for him to get some words out in between them.]
That wasn't me. The person who hospitalized my father and brother, who drove the other monks to attack each other, who spoke to you all so cruelly - that wasn't me. I could never do such a thing to my family!
Why, wh-why did this happen? What did I possibly do to deserve anyone's ire enough for them to do this? Why did I fail my family and let this happen?! I should have resisted, I should have...
Father... R-Reikan-nii...
[And he bursts into a fresh wave of tears.]
Eventually, the sobs slow down enough for him to get some words out in between them.]
That wasn't me. The person who hospitalized my father and brother, who drove the other monks to attack each other, who spoke to you all so cruelly - that wasn't me. I could never do such a thing to my family!
Why, wh-why did this happen? What did I possibly do to deserve anyone's ire enough for them to do this? Why did I fail my family and let this happen?! I should have resisted, I should have...
Father... R-Reikan-nii...
[And he bursts into a fresh wave of tears.]
[Accidental Voice]
Feb. 16th, 2010 09:48 pmI'm not going to cheat on him. Not with Kid, not with Shirou. I would never cheat on him, even with a person I loved, because I also love him and you don't cheat on people you love.
But apparently, you can't love two or three or four people equally! You can only love one the most. And of course that person isn't the one you're dating. You're being disloyal just by dating anyone at all.
And if you love two people, you're fated to cheat on them. There's no such thing as self control! If you have to love more than one person, you might as well just never date anyone for your entire life to keep yourself from harming them! Who cares if you're unloved forever, if they're safe from you?
In fact, why don't you just go ahead and DIE FOR THEM?! It's the only way to prove that your love isn't just a selfish emotion, it's the only way to date them and not eventually betray them! Go ahead! I know I would!
'Take what you want from me, strip me bare, send me into certain death.' If you can't even respect my loyalty, which is the entirety of my being, how can you respect me at all?!
((Hakuba really made Issei flip out with his assertion that Issei couldn't love two people at the same time. Replies will be voice, he's not well enough to type correctly.))
But apparently, you can't love two or three or four people equally! You can only love one the most. And of course that person isn't the one you're dating. You're being disloyal just by dating anyone at all.
And if you love two people, you're fated to cheat on them. There's no such thing as self control! If you have to love more than one person, you might as well just never date anyone for your entire life to keep yourself from harming them! Who cares if you're unloved forever, if they're safe from you?
In fact, why don't you just go ahead and DIE FOR THEM?! It's the only way to prove that your love isn't just a selfish emotion, it's the only way to date them and not eventually betray them! Go ahead! I know I would!
'Take what you want from me, strip me bare, send me into certain death.' If you can't even respect my loyalty, which is the entirety of my being, how can you respect me at all?!
((Hakuba really made Issei flip out with his assertion that Issei couldn't love two people at the same time. Replies will be voice, he's not well enough to type correctly.))
[Accidental Video Post]
Feb. 10th, 2010 01:10 am( Cut OOCly for length. )
((All replies will come after he wakes up for the day. ...Which will be quite a bit later than his day should actually start (in two and a half hours).))
((All replies will come after he wakes up for the day. ...Which will be quite a bit later than his day should actually start (in two and a half hours).))