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[Failed lock to Haruto]

Haruto. H-how do we feel about threesomes and foursomes?

I love you dearly and no one else can replace you, but I have a line of people waiting to sleep with me, amd I want you to enjoy yourself too.

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I know.

[Action]

[He appears in the doorway] Fine. Fine. You know what? You can do it if you want. Wesker, Adachi, Issei, it's all fine. Just let me be there, please. And don't hide it from me.

[Sigh] I was never planning on hiding anything from you in the first place. Remember the part where I'm not a complete asshole? And you saying something something is 'fine' doesn't mean you're okay with it. I'm not going to do anything with any of them.

[He sits on the arm of Birkin's chair and wraps his arms around him]

I'm okay with it if I know you don't need to hide it from me.

I don't need to. But that's partially because Issei would never do anything without Haruto's go-ahead, Wesker's... Decidedly not interested, and the last thing I need is to give Adachi another reason to call me a whore.

[Birkin leans against his chest] Besides, I'm not the sort of person who throws salt in people's wounds.

[Sighs and rests his chin on Birkin's head] So mainly the reason why you don't need to is because they aren't available. That's why I'm saying it's okay. Because sooner or later, it'll happen. And I just...want to know that I'll know about it when it does. That you won't hide it because you're afraid I'll hurt someone, or you.

Oh stop it. [He shoots Stein a look before realizing that's possibly not the best way to go about this]

Look, I know you're new to this whole 'love' concept so let me try and explain: You are, truthfully, the only person I want. It's not going to happen, okay?

[Softly:] People cheat on people they love all the time. [His fingers tighten in Birkin's coat] I'm trying to be reasonable about this.

I wouldn't do that to you.

[He's trying so hard to believe it.] Why can't you just...accept what I'm giving you? So at least I'll know if you ever do...

Because I'm not the sort of person who'd do that to someone I care about! Especially when they've already got a history with shit like that! I'm nothing like Spirit so stop assuming that you need to have some... Fail-safe because I'm planning on cheating on you every time I meet someone who likes me.

[Sighs] Issei and I were just joking around and then it snowballed a bit. That's all.

[Flinch. Okay, that stung.]

[Softly:] I'm sorry. You're right...and I'm sorry.

[Birkin's silent for a while because he fails at this sort of thing] I forgive you. I apologize for snapping at you like that.

It's okay. Apparently...I needed it. [He closes his eyes and presses his face into the soft blond hair] I'm glad you're not Spirit. And not just because you're actually capable of true loyalty.

Let me guess, I'm cuter? [He reaches up and runs his fingers through Stein's hair] You shouldn't dwell on the past so much...

You are cuter. [He smiles, and shrugs] I didn't think I was dwelling on the past that much. Maybe I need to let go of it more.

Careful, if my ego swells too much Wesker'll need to knock me down a few pegs. [He smiles] I definitely think you need to let go of it more. It's not worth your time to think about him.

[Nuzzles a little] I guess I've been trying to keep myself on a leash, a little.

Don't bother. You don't need to hold yourself back for us. [Birkin's smile is the slightest bit twisted] You should just be yourself, all this leash business is clearly a stress on you.

Hmph, you were supposed to keep me on track originally, you know. [Wry smile] You just want me to go mad enough to want to stay here.

Is it working?

[Soft sigh and a smile] What do you think? I'm not complaining, though.

Not to say I prefer you completely crazy, because honestly you scared the hell out of me when you were like that. [Shrugs] Which is mostly why I don't want you going back there.

[Headshake] That's not the kind of mad I mean. I don't think letting myself go would result in hallucinations and catatonia. But it might result in me doing things that Shibusen wouldn't approve of.

What's the harm in that? Even if we did go there one day, they'd never know.

They might. Kid is on here...

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