I just want a bit part in your life

[Issei is praying. Anyone who knows anything of Japanese Buddhism will recognize that. Even those who aren't familiar will know that he isn't doing it very well. He keeps stopping and restarting after making a mistake. Eventually, he gives up altogether.]

I'm a failure as a monk... If I cannot purify myself of such base thoughts, of what use am I? I should, should be running the streets rather than living in a temple!

[There's a loud thunk.]

Ow. Even beating my head against the wall will not remove these thoughts, it seems. Dear Buddha, help me...